MY STORY
We all carry the weight of life’s challenges, and for many of us, the scars of trauma run deeper than what is visible on the surface.
My own journey has been shaped by multiple traumas, beginning at the age of 3 with sexual abuse and these experiences were defining me until I started my healing journey. While these wounds were not always visible to others, they created deep emotional pain that I spent years learning to navigate and heal.
From a young age, I was on a quest for answers. At 13, I experienced a profound connection with astrology and developed a belief in destiny. I began to sense that there was something larger at play in my life, something beyond my control. But while I explored these deeper questions about my existence, I was also developing coping mechanisms to function in the world. Externally, everything seemed fine, but internally, I was carrying the weight of several unresolved traumas I couldn’t yet understand.
As I moved through my younger years and into adulthood, I often felt like something was missing, like there was something inherently wrong with me. I turned to self-help, desperately seeking any answer to release the pain inside. But no matter how many books I read or practices I tried, that deep, unshakable feeling of being “broken” never seemed to leave.
It was at this point that I recognized my continued poor choices and destructive behavioral patterns were leading to significant obstacles in many areas of my life. This realization became a crucial turning point, compelling me to seek a more fundamental inner healing journey. It became clear that to move forward, I needed to delve into the very roots of these issues, paving the way for a profound shift.
In 2007, my journey into formal self-healing began.
I became a personal trainer and began training in hypnotherapy and life coaching. Each step I took on this path brought me closer to my own growth and self-discovery, while also equipping me to help others unlock their potential.
In 2013, I expanded my healing practices, training as an Angelic Reiki Master Teacher and Crystal Therapist. I also started teaching accredited professional healing courses that year, sharing my knowledge with those seeking to walk their own path as healers. I further incorporated sound healing and shamanic practices, amongst others, deepening my ability to guide others on their spiritual journeys.
Even as I trained others and delved deeper into the healing arts, my own personal quest for wholeness continued. The mantra “physician heal thy self” consistently guides me through all obstacles, showing self-acceptance is deeper than mere intellect. Exploring crystals, sound, and shamanic practices, amongst many other healing practices, profoundly shifted my understanding, revealing it was not about fixing, but remembering an innate state of being. This winding journey commits me to peeling back layers, always seeking my truer self.
When I turned 40, there was a deep sense of healing that allowed me to fully celebrate the person I had become. I felt free—finally liberated from the deep sense of separation I had always felt throughout my life
I felt whole, for the first time in my life, free from the emotional burdens that had once defined me. But I also understood that healing is an ongoing journey. There is no destination while we are in the physical body—there will always be opportunities to grow on a soul level.
The last decade has been one of profound development, as I have continued to strengthen the foundation of my healing and teaching practices. I’ve learned so much from each client and student, as their stories and journeys have enriched my own.
Alopecia has been a significant part of my journey. I first experienced it at the age of 7 when I lost my eyelashes and eyebrows. At 22, after using hair extensions that were meant to help with thinning hair, I experienced full alopecia. This was the moment I began wearing a wig, something that felt both necessary and socially acceptable at the time. For years, I hid behind the shame of my condition. Wearing a wig became a way to mask the deep pain I couldn’t face.
But as I approached 50, a powerful shift surfaced: Time to share my true story, revealing over a decade of inner peace now visible to the world.
For years, I’d struggled with my alopecia, believing I was diseased, ill, or damaged. But through a transformative cycle of seven rounds, each seven years long, dedicated to self-exploration, healing, and acceptance, I reached a profound spiritual culmination, and was truly ready to step into my truth. I no longer saw my hair loss as a weakness or something to hide; instead, it became clear it was a result of childhood traumas and external actions, now transformed into a gift—a symbol of my resilience, strength, and unique journey. When I looked in the mirror, I saw not loss, but profound transformation.
This profound acceptance of myself had been a quiet truth I carried for over a decade. As I approached 50, I knew it was time. The version of myself that I had seen so clearly within for so long was now ready to stand visible to the world, empowering others to embrace their own unique strengths through their stories and struggles.
My journey has taught me that by embracing our scars, our stories, and our struggles, we find the true essence of who we are and step into our fullest potential. This is a truth I want to share with everyone.
Today, as the founder of Holistic Ruby, I share the tools, wisdom, and practices that have helped me heal, with all who are navigating their own unique paths. Whether you are seeking deeper understanding, desiring personal growth, or simply looking to embrace a life of peace and well-being, I am here to guide you.
Let’s reframe self-limiting trauma into inherent strengths; connect with me to discover the innate wisdom within.